woah its been a long time....forgot this still existed...

 

anyways life for me is on a stand still everything just suddenly feels so slow...><...holidays was too fast...think i was working too much..but with the dept and all... i have to T_T....now uni has started again and it seems as though i've been put on slow motion while everything else is just speeding up. 

 

mum's been sick lately...i donno what to do...i feel really stupid and all..like i'm studying a profession to help her but i feel like i have no idea whats going on.  its probably nothing, she had a high fever the last 2 days and i took her to the doctors last night and they said she just had URT infection but i donno, i guess i'm jst worried. she kept me up last night with her coughing and at one point it was just blood, the doctores recons its nothing - probably from the nose they guess, she cant speak properly and is fighting for every breath.  she got angry at my brother today and ended up getting a bleeding nose..><.....i'm scared

 

my sister got engaged on sunday...i was soo happy for her....she's been wanting it for sooo long but when its finally here she's scared....always still fighting with her boyfriend (now fiance)

 

anyways its like 11.26pm and i feel like i should be doing something but i donno what... so here i am...just listening out for any more coughs from my mum..i hope she's sleeping ok ...there u go...i hear it agian..T_T

 

anyways i'm just gonna go think